Jamie All Over- Mayday Parade

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I made this poster earlier this summer. So I took a picture and edited it tonight while laying in bed ūüôā

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Jamie All Over- Mayday Parade

Am I a planner?

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In an attempt to make my life more organized, I bought a planner. So far it has been helping, I think. I keep my work schedule, shopping list, or things I think of right before I fall asleep. Take for example, things to blog about. I have to say it makes me feel grown up for some reason, even though I got it from Victoria’s Secret..

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Am I a planner?

#WhiteGirlStatus

I like Starbucks.

Sue me.

Its all that I have available to me at the moment.

Working in the mall everyday doesn’t exactly¬†broaden your¬†horizons.¬†There are very few places to choose from. Like Starbucks for example, I get a¬†grande mocha iced coffee with milk.¬†You could go there, and ask Susan, what my morning order is!¬†Although,¬†sometimes I changed it up a ¬†little and get a¬†grande mocha frappachino with a single shot of espresso and no whipped cream.

*Everyone reading this shakes heads, and thinks¬†she’s one of those people.*
I know, I know!
The thing is though, is that it has become a part of my routine. Its comforting. In the morning, when I open at work, I don’t go literally straight to my store from the mall entrance,¬†nope!¬†I go down the escalator, walk past the food court to the Starbucks,¬†stand, counter, booth, whatever its called, its just kinda in the middle of nowhere…¬†Like I said, Susan, knows me.
So here it goes, *takes deep breath, and exhales*  I, Elizabeth Anne Cecelia Wallace, AM A COMMON WHITE GIRL. 
ITS OUT THERE, THERE’S NO GOING BACK. ITS ON THE INTERNET FOREVER…
#WhiteGirlStatus

update.

I haven’t written anything lately, and for the few followers I have, that may or may not care, here is an update on what has been going on in my life as of late.

Things over all have been good. I feel like one of those people that are always saying “I’m fine.” Only this time I am not¬†just saying it because I am being honest. My life has been taking a turn for the better for once. I should be happy, and for the most part I am. I have been seeing my friends more often, working more hours, which means more money. ¬†I interviewed for a new job today, and it seems promising! I will¬†hopefully¬†begin my search for a car to lease. So I should be happy right? Unfortunately, I have this horrible feeling that something really bad is going to happen. I wish it would go away. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that if I get this new job, I am going to be the¬†new girl.¬†I’ve been at American Eagle for so long that I don’t know what that feels like anymore. I suppose you could say I don’t want to lose my¬†seniority.¬†I am so unhappy at AE nowadays. I find myself wishing I was anywhere else. I like the majority of the people I work with, but then there are select few that I just¬†cannot¬†stand to be around. Take for instance, my new store manager, or this other girl that I work with. For the sake of being cautious, I won’t use names, because, well I don’t know who could be reading this, or if someone reading this were to tell said person, I could lose my job before I could quit. That would¬†not¬†be good.

I am also afraid that I won’t be able to lease a car on my own. My parents don’t have the best credit, and I only have one credit card to build off of, so it also is not the¬†very best.¬†Although, I don’t really know what it is.. I am scared that if I get this new job that I wont have any way to get there, because it is¬†way too far to walk.¬†I wish there was someone who could loan me a car until I am able to afford one. I also wish that my dad would¬†finally¬†get his “company” car so my family could at least have two vehicles; even if one isn’t mine. What if I can’t get the car? What if it takes me too long to save for a car that is cheap, but reliable? My parents wan’t me to have a “plan”. I have¬†absolutely¬†no plan. nada. zilch. zero.

My friend Katie left for ISU today. I am so proud of her! When we first met each other, we did’t like one another at all. It just goes to show that you should never judge a person until you get to know them. Katie, Maddi, and I have become much closer friends over the past few months. I get to see them more often which is really helping with my depression. Although on nights like these, especially the night after I forgot the day she was leaving, and I missed saying goodbye, really sucks. I am going to miss her. Even though I know Maddi and I will visit her whenever we can, I know it won’t be as often as we want, Especially as often as it has been when she only lived 15 minutes away.

Two weekends I go I believe, we had a family party up at my mom’s cousins, or my second cousin’s, ¬†I don’t really know how I am related to all of them, but they are family nonetheless.¬†¬†We always eat like kings there. His house is beautiful. There is so much to look at, but not much to do, because its practically in the middle of nowhere. ¬†I don’t have any cousins my age, so I am either with my younger cousins, or with my¬†older¬†cousins. My cousin Sara wasn’t there. I miss her a lot. She lives in Marion with my aunt Peggy and family. They are family I actually like, and feel comfortable around. I¬†love¬†going down to my Aunt Peggy’s. It’s only 5 hours south, but it is a completely different world! I hope we go down again soon..

I just have to keep reminding myself that change is supposed to be good. It happens every day whether we like it or not. ¬†But it is not as enjoyable when so many things change all at once. It is really scary. I wish that things were going to be easier from here on out, but even thought things are getting better, it doesn’t mean they are going to be easier.

I can do this.”¬†

Liz.

update.