01. Your current relationship; if single, discuss single life.
Well, I am not in a relationship, so I suppose I will discuss single life. I certainly don’t mind single life. Though I will admit when I see a precious couple I have one of those “FOREVER ALONE!!” moments. But I am definitely not the type to bounce from one guy to another.
02. Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Well in 10 years from now I will be almost 30 years old. eww gross! I hope that by then I am graduated from culinary school, married, or at least in a serious relationship, with a well-known bakery in L.A. or San Francisco, California. I don’t plan on having kids, but I better have a Chow and Tea-cup Yorkie.
03. Your views on drugs and alcohol.
This can be a tricky subject based on the mere fact that marijuana is not a drug, but is considered to be one by most. I condone the use of mary jane, but indubitably not cocaine, mushrooms, meth, heroine, etc. Alcohol is fine, as long as you don’t get blackout drunk. If you drink socially, or even a glass of wine at home, I think its fine in moderation.
04. Your views on religion.
I grew up Catholic; it’s all I know. I have made my Baptism, First Communion, Confirmation, I attend Mass every Sunday as much as I can. I have been on the March For Life in Washington D.C. 4 times. I have attended 2 N.C.Y.C. (National Catholic Youth Conference) I volunteered 10 days in Mississippi and Louisiana for Hurricane Katrina relief efforts, and I was a member of my parish’s youth group CHAOS (Christ Has Awakened Our Spirit) for 5 years. I am also a Lector and Eucharistic Minister. Even though I have done all of these things mentioned, I still believe that anyone can believe what they believe. I know that being Catholic, I am supposed to believe that if you are not Catholic, you’re going to straight to hell, and you need to be saved but people who are Catholic are not always good people. I just cannot wrap my mind around the fact that if a person that gives up their entire life to devote themselves to helping others, but is Hindu, that they are damned. All that God asks of us is that we keep the ten commandments, so if you follow them, and treat others with love and respect, it should not matter what religion you call yourself.
05. A time you thought of ending your own life.
If you know me; you know that me and my mother do not get along most of the time. We fight a lot, and she makes me feel like shit almost every day. I cannot do anything right in her eyes, and I just cannot seem to make her proud of me. She looks at me like I mean nothing to her. I also have an extremely low self-esteem. I rag on myself the most. I think that I am not good enough for anyone. I don’t deserve to be treated with respect. I don’t deserve the things I have, or the people I know, or the people I call my friends. Yes, I have thought about committing suicide. I think about it far too often. How easy it would be, how I could do it, would anyone even care? Would it be better for my parents if I wasn’t such a burden to them?
06. Your Zodiak sign, and if you think it fits your personality.
My Zodiak sign is Libra, so you decide:
Traditional Libra traits: diplomatic and urbane, Romantic and charming, Easygoing and sociable, Idealistic and peaceable. Indecisive and changeable. Gullible and easily influenced. Flirtatious and self-indulgent.
Sounds about right to me!
07. A moment you felt most satisfied with yourself.
OK let’s see. Well I was particularly keen when my softball team and I ended an inning with 4 pitches. 1. (girl on other team) hit into a single, thrown out at first. 2. girl hit a fly in the infield, caught, and called out. 3. I threw a ball… 4. Fly ball to outfield, caught, and girl was called out. I about twerked off the infield. By the way, we crushed that team that day.
08. Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
If you have ever met me, you already know that I never stop talking about moving to California. However, the place I would absolutely LOVE to visit is Ireland. I believe I’ve mentioned in a previous entry that I am extremely Irish; and proud of it! I would fit right in there! What I always tell people around here, is that I burn so easily because Ireland is perpetually cloudy!
09. Your first love, and first kiss.
My first love, that was most certainly one way, on my part of course, was a boy at church. Growing up home schooled, I never had much interaction with the opposite sex, I cannot recall his name, but I can picture him in my head. He sat behind us every week, and I just thought he was so cute! Thinking back, he was actually really ugly, and I know that sounds mean, but it’s the truth, sorry. I never spoke to him, or hung out with him outside of church, but I was always thinking about him. I also fell in love with J.C. from N SYNC. Go ahead, judge me all you want, but I would kiss his poster behind my door every day. My first kiss was with a boy named Andrew. He lived across the street from me, and if my brother is reading this, even he does’t know this story. I was 11 or 12 at the time, and it happened when we walked down to the creek in our neighborhood, alone, and it was just a peck, but it still counted. We swore it to secrecy, because he was my brother’s friend, and we didn’t want him to know.
10. Bullet your whole day.
- I usually get up around 7:30- 8:00 am.
- On weekdays I open at work, so I get dressed in whatever is laying on my floor, because apparently I am a teenage boy. I work at a clothing store, do you really think I am going to come home and do my own laundry? nope!
- I make myself a cup of coffee with my vanilla caramel creamer, and grab a poptart from my “snack shelf” in my room.
- I then start on my hair, if I don’t straighten it, which a pain, it goes up in a bun.
- make-up time, gotta get myself all dolled up
- I eat my poptart watching How I Met Your Mother in bed until I need to put on my shoes and leave
- *at work for about 4 1/2 hours.*
- make myself lunch, usually noodle soup, or a grilled cheese.
- watch How I Met Your Mother the rest of the day